...wouldn't you? I just realised that not everyone on this blog actually know me, so I'd like to apologise for calling ALL of you wimps...
Fact remains... and it's quite an ironic one... that not so long after I joined this blog, I was diagnosed with a rare type of cervical cancer, and even writing it here feels kinda weird because I know how weird it is for people dealing with other people who have (semi)terminal diseases such as this. I'm not writing any of this for sympathy or empathy or any effect at all, I'm just writing because this is what I would have done even if I wasn't sick. In a way I guess I'm hoping to get a 'normal' or 'honest' response from people in cyberspace, because I don't get it in physical interaction. And of course because we were on the topic to start with... although, not many of us for that matter... what's the matter? Why have only so few people contributed?
It might seem a little morbid to try and entice you all to contribute to this topic in spite of your not having done so before, but I'm going to try anyway. It just seems such a serendipitous event, the existence of this blog (well, for me anyway), that I would be foolish to not respond to it. SO, I'd really LOVE to hear (without ruining the comical angle one is prone to take) what your take is on dying. More precisely, if you KNEW you were going to die, how would you choose for it to happen? What would the things be that you'd do once you knew? Would you fight to stay put and why? I'd really love to know your take on it...
Thursday, August 11, 2005
It's been FOUR MONTHS since I've been here, and almost two since I heard that I've probably been moved to the front of the cue on this particular subject we're discussing... and what, not even one comment??? Don't you all think that the deafening silence is somehow more bizarre than whatever your first thought was? Like maybe "Damn Mikki, what bloody diet have you been on??", or maybe "It's been a total pain in the ass knowing you, but it looks like we might not be tortured for much longer..." or maybe "yeah baby, are you trikki enough to get out of this one?" or even better "Where can I get the morphine from?" That's what I wanna know. Now please, don't you all scurry for my ashes ok?